Today has been shit. My room mate has decided to move out tonight, shes already packed up and gone. And over something so little and petty. I really thought she would realise that I wasn’t even part of this whole stupid thing. Yes I didn’t delete the comments and I had no say in what my sister was going to do or write. And of course I am going to aside with my sister, because I know for a fact if it was the other way around she would be the same. You would stick up for your own flesh and blood. SO yeah I am now stressed out to the max with how I am going to afford to live on my own with my wages. I only get $280 a week on my normal roster, defiantly no where near enough for this house :( I have until November to find a new room mate or move into a flat/unit but being said that I have a kitten on the way and I am not giving up him because of this!!

And to make things worse all I want to do is to lay in my boyfriends arms but he has been stuck at work because of the stupid shutdown that they had today, he was only suppose to work until 7pm and its nearlly 9pm D: Haven’t even had dinner, not like I have an appetite anyways. Aghh today has been the worse!!!

Definitely need to start taking my white pill tomorrow, eating everything in site lately. I can always tell when I need to take them because I just eat and eat and eat and get very moody very quickly D: Its been about 3 months so should really take them. Not looking forward to this week now D;

My life is getting worse and worse, its just not fair. 1 month ago I was happy, was with a guy that I loved with my whole heart, a house, 2 amazing little cats, and a steady job. Now all I have is no one, no house, no cats and a job where my hours are getting cut because I’m turning 21 soon :( This fucking sucks so much. I’m constatly stressing about money and not being able to afford a place and feeling lonely D: Will it ever a better? And if so when?