I’m sick and tired of feeling this way. Like life is a struggle, it shouldn’t feel that way. Life is precious yet it feels more like a burden :/ Every little thing gets to me, or has been lately. The way I look, how I’ve put on a couple of kilos has really up setted me and it shouldn’t even be such a big deal. I thought by the time I was 21 I would of gotten over this ‘body image issue’, having this kind of thinking since I was 12, its really fucked my body up. I can’t help but get stomach cramps every time food hits my lips. Wondering if I’ve made the right choice and I’ve been comparing my body to basically everyone I see, wishing I had their legs/hair/face. 

If I ever have a child, I want to teach them that you shouldn’t worry or compare yourself and body to anyone, that you are beautiful the way you are. No one deserves to think this way. I wouldn’t even wish this on my worse enemy. 

Definitely need to start taking my white pill tomorrow, eating everything in site lately. I can always tell when I need to take them because I just eat and eat and eat and get very moody very quickly D: Its been about 3 months so should really take them. Not looking forward to this week now D;